Writing from the Heart

My heart feels hollow. Since the day you said, "I'm done". Believing I wasn't enough. You left me because it Was easier than staying. You didn't want to fight For our love  Because I was never enough. I'm praying for you. So you can heal, So you can learn to love again. My heart feels deceased. Since the day you said, "I need to be by myself." Believing in your word. However, getting sad. When you chose to live Without me, someone  Who loved you. Someone who wanted The best for you. I'm weary of feeling Like I was nobody. As if the time together Meant nothing to you. My heart is disappointed. Being trapped behind A prison you placed me in. Without any warning. You didn't give me time to process The loss, you disappeared. And you selfishly gave me up. You didn't think of me. But every night I've been praying Not so you return,  Yet wanting you to be healthy. To be okay, to be loved. It...

I love you, sweetheart I always have, Always will. That won't change. Nothing can replace you. My heart has been yours. Since the age of six. Not knowing what it really was. But feeling it every time  I looked into your eyes, Hearing you tease me Over and over again. I love you, sweetheart Even more than I did then. Even more than the grass Needs the rain to grow. No one can compare to you, My heart will always be yours. Even through the seconds Of endless pain. Puddling my eyes with tears. Tears that you healed  With your very touch. With your very kiss. I love you, sweetheart. I always have, Always will. That won't change. No one understands what I see in you. The way you gently stared into my eyes. The way you kissed my forehead. The way you carried this pain That can only heal if you let it Grow through the process. Don't fight it, accept the loss. The pain you've been feeling. I love you, sweetheart. Even when you told ...

I feel your breath, Against my hot skin. When I close my eyes, I see your face. I feel your hands, Sandwiching my face. When I think of you, I hear your voice. We are no good apart. I'm saddened by your departure. Labeling me as just another. When I wasn't. I wasn't just some girl, Whom you met so recently. We were forced to pretend We liked each other When we were kids. Not knowing the path  Our future would lead us on. Wondering what could've been. We were just two kids, Who always loved each other. Yet, never admitting to it. We wanted to prove them wrong. Then you selfishly chose another Over a happiness with me. Not knowing that she would Curse your future with me. We were just two kids, Who always wanted to be together. Yet, denying our feelings. Wanting to prove them wrong. Then five years of separation, United two souls who  Always loved each other. Blessing us with seven months. And you made the decision, To part way...

My heart feels non-existent. Feeling hollowness inside my chest. A chest you used to kiss your ear to. The same chest that sang every single time. My fingers feel numb. Feeling the blood cease to exist. The same fingers that slid through your hair. The same fingers that touched your hands. My lips forgot the touch of yours. Feeling the tingle disappear. A set of lips that kissed you one last time. A set of lips that was fooled by your touch. My eyes are having trouble seeing. Feeling my vision disappear like you did. My eyes used to gaze into your windows. My eyes used to memorize your face. The silence between us has been hard. I've been wanting to reach out. However, watching videos to make me not to. I can't fall so low anymore. I've done it in the past. I've let men step over me. And make me go so low. I vowed not to make the same mistakes. Although, I already did. I begged you to not leave. In the moment, I thought you'd change y...

In the months when we were together, Bathed beneath the happiness Of the bright sun. I saw us glisten hope. Everyday felt like I had the world In my hands, i n my life,  In my dreams, a nd i n my heart  Because  I had you. In the months when we were together, You looked into my eyes Like you never saw something So perfect, so magical. Everyday felt like I had a safe Place to rest my head, A soft kiss to heal my skin, And a beautiful view in your eyes. We were two people who were Far from being perfect. But I knew in my heart, I wanted to be bathed within your love Forever. In the months when we were together It didn't seem like I was being  Played, by every song you sang By every touch you gave me. Choosing another instead of me. The one person who wanted to  Keep you safe so no one would hurt you again. Yet, I failed and I blamed myself. The last week of being together, Shaded by a blanket of black clouds, Shocki...

The stories are fading away Like the chapters that have come and gone Remembering you in the face of the pain Wanting this ache inside my chest  To go away, so I won't feel it anymore. So, I won't remember what it was like To love you, to have you. Missing my best friend. Desperately, wanting to break  Away from the grip of your hands Just so I can breathe again. I stay awake at night. Praying to God, To erase the memories inside my head To get rid of the demons Clawing at my insides. Twisting my heart, clenching into The veins of the chambers. Waiting to grow completely numb Not wanting to feel the pain. What love caused me to feel. I fell in love with you, You mended my heart Then quickly shattered it. You didn't even look back To see if I was okay, To see if I'm breathing, To see how I'm coping. Instead, I'm left with silence. A silence that can fit  The entire solar system. The orbit we once were floating in. We were e...

Every night I close my eyes. To the sound of your voice, To the silhouette of your face, And to the memory of your touch. Wondering how everything can  Get better when I have no drive. No drive to smile even when I need to. No drive to laugh because I miss you. Every moment with you wasn't perfect. But every minute with you  I was reminded of why I loved you. Your heart, your laugh and your smile. To me you were my forever person. I remembered staring into your face As you slept away your weariness. Cuddled up next to you beneath your chin. Grazing your skin with my fingers. Kissing your lips with the touch of mine. Running my fingers through your hair. Tightening my legs around your waist. Every moment with you wasn't perfect. We had arguments, we had disagreements. We had misunderstandings. Yet, I was sure of you. I was sure that I wanted to be with you. That I wanted to be your person  For the rest of my life. Hearing y...