Writing from the Heart

Vulnerable in defeat, Blinded in this cheat. My heart rumbles with fire, You were my only desire. You act so sweet, In reality you are no treat. How could I love a liar? I don't know what you inquire. To keep me begging on my knees, All you make me do is freeze. Make me lose myself within your talk, One of these days you'll lose every clock. Losing time to breathe fresh air, This is more than I could bare. The aching pain in the midst,  Remembering the time when we kissed. You no longer care.  Both of you make a lovely pair. 

The moment is here that I have come to realize that I am not in the right place. I am no longer seeking my faith when things get rough, I no longer feel the need to talk to my friends and I no longer feel the necessity to feel love. It is crazy to think that 2012 was when I was strongest in my faith. The year that I fell in love with God and the year that I fell in love with a man that was everything to me. He made me a better person although he doesn't think he did. He taught me how to love, what love feels like and I met this man when I was strongest in my faith. Although 2012, was a year with magical moments like falling in love, going to Prom, being the strongest in my faith, it also was a year that I first experienced heart ache. No matter what people told me-- that heart ache I felt was an unbearable pain. I was weak, unhappy, and slowly losing myself within all the pain. He was a man that I loved so much and he left me. I knew it was the right to let him go because he isn