Writing from the Heart

My heart feels hollow. Since the day you said, "I'm done". Believing I wasn't enough. You left me because it Was easier than staying. You didn't want to fight For our love  Because I was never enough. I'm praying for you. So you can heal, So you can learn to love again. My heart feels deceased. Since the day you said, "I need to be by myself." Believing in your word. However, getting sad. When you chose to live Without me, someone  Who loved you. Someone who wanted The best for you. I'm weary of feeling Like I was nobody. As if the time together Meant nothing to you. My heart is disappointed. Being trapped behind A prison you placed me in. Without any warning. You didn't give me time to process The loss, you disappeared. And you selfishly gave me up. You didn't think of me. But every night I've been praying Not so you return,  Yet wanting you to be healthy. To be okay, to be loved. It

I love you, sweetheart I always have, Always will. That won't change. Nothing can replace you. My heart has been yours. Since the age of six. Not knowing what it really was. But feeling it every time  I looked into your eyes, Hearing you tease me Over and over again. I love you, sweetheart Even more than I did then. Even more than the grass Needs the rain to grow. No one can compare to you, My heart will always be yours. Even through the seconds Of endless pain. Puddling my eyes with tears. Tears that you healed  With your very touch. With your very kiss. I love you, sweetheart. I always have, Always will. That won't change. No one understands what I see in you. The way you gently stared into my eyes. The way you kissed my forehead. The way you carried this pain That can only heal if you let it Grow through the process. Don't fight it, accept the loss. The pain you've been feeling. I love you, sweetheart. Even when you told

I feel your breath, Against my hot skin. When I close my eyes, I see your face. I feel your hands, Sandwiching my face. When I think of you, I hear your voice. We are no good apart. I'm saddened by your departure. Labeling me as just another. When I wasn't. I wasn't just some girl, Whom you met so recently. We were forced to pretend We liked each other When we were kids. Not knowing the path  Our future would lead us on. Wondering what could've been. We were just two kids, Who always loved each other. Yet, never admitting to it. We wanted to prove them wrong. Then you selfishly chose another Over a happiness with me. Not knowing that she would Curse your future with me. We were just two kids, Who always wanted to be together. Yet, denying our feelings. Wanting to prove them wrong. Then five years of separation, United two souls who  Always loved each other. Blessing us with seven months. And you made the decision, To part way

My heart feels non-existent. Feeling hollowness inside my chest. A chest you used to kiss your ear to. The same chest that sang every single time. My fingers feel numb. Feeling the blood cease to exist. The same fingers that slid through your hair. The same fingers that touched your hands. My lips forgot the touch of yours. Feeling the tingle disappear. A set of lips that kissed you one last time. A set of lips that was fooled by your touch. My eyes are having trouble seeing. Feeling my vision disappear like you did. My eyes used to gaze into your windows. My eyes used to memorize your face. The silence between us has been hard. I've been wanting to reach out. However, watching videos to make me not to. I can't fall so low anymore. I've done it in the past. I've let men step over me. And make me go so low. I vowed not to make the same mistakes. Although, I already did. I begged you to not leave. In the moment, I thought you'd change y