Writing from the Heart

When vacancy becomes the barrier. All the walls will come down. That's when you'll hear me call. Not before, not after. When air becomes too much. My heart will dry up. That's when I'm no more. Not before, not after. When hope becomes broken. All the faith will go with it. That's when you won't see me cry. Not before, not after. When love becomes overused. My lungs will flare up. That's when I won't fight for you. Not before, and not after. When pain becomes a friend. All the worries will be numb. That's when I'll never be seen again. Not before and not after. When the day will come, All will bow down to my vulnerability. That's when nothing will matter. You won't matter anymore. I've given up. You've taken all of me.

Everyday, gets a little easier. I think of you less, And try to let you go even more. It's okay, I'm okay. No matter what the future holds. You made me feel more, Safe, loved, and seen. It's okay, I'm okay. I didn't have to hide myself, From you because you saw me. You listened to me. It's okay, I'm okay. There was never a time Where I wanted to leave. You made me happy. It's okay, I'm okay. You drained away all the negatives. You numbed all my senses. Yet, heightened everything else. It's okay, I'm okay. Everyday that goes by, I hope for your return. I'll open my arms to you. It's okay to be afraid. I don't have regrets. I don't have resentment. All I needed was your honesty. Your clarity and your confession. So thank you, for a wonderful few months. My only wish is for you to find happiness. And everyday you shouldn't have to worry. It's okay, I'm okay. 

There aren't enough words, To replace the pain inside. I'm sorry for pressuring you, I never wanted to be that person. I wanted to be there for you, To be your person. There aren't enough first hellos, To make you see that I'm here for good.  Every kiss I wanted to make it last, For the sake of my heart. There aren't enough smiles, To make all of this okay. The intervals between clicked lips, Didn't last long as I craved for your touch. There aren't enough time, To hold onto you for good. Every moment with you was like the first, Exhilarating, beautiful and safe. There aren't enough embraces, To make me breathe on my own. I wanted to be the one you turned to, When you needed someone to be there. There aren't enough moments, To relive with you because you're not here. My heart will remember your touch, And my mind will know your person. There is enough love in me, For the both of us. I'll hol

My anger and frustration of the so-called Truth, Is burning me to ashes. You look at me and you no longer exist. Just a coward who knows how to play the act. You never cared about me like you said you did. When all I ever did was speak to you with  Sincerity, Hope, Love and told you what I felt. Yet, I wasn't enough to make you do the same. You choose to ignore me because you think  You're a man but you aren't. Just a coward who doesn't deserve anything. When all you did was deserve everything. Now I look at your posts and see a man  I wish I never got to know. With tears in my eyes and fire in my heart. Deep down I knew you were just another boy With rude intentions, not respecting the woman you so call PREACH. I'm a magnet to jerks who think they are better  Than everyone. Think they are better than me. I deserve the explanation of why you chose to leave. You PREACH for no HOES but you are ONE yourself. I'm done with MEN , boys like y