Writing from the Heart

My brain remembers Every touch, Every moment, And every kiss. A flash of lightning, That only lasts for seconds, But lingers on for miles. The things you said. The things you promised. And the word forever stamped Onto my heart. Made only for me. My brain remembers The way the corner Of your lips cracked Into a smile. Remembering the soft Gaze as you looked  Into my eyes, never failing Yet, always wondering. If you were good enough To hold a heart like mine. And you were good enough. Because I chose you. My brain remembers The way you dug Your face into my hair.  Pulling me closer So I wouldn't fade. If only you had realized How I see you. A heart full of gold. A dream full of promise. A warmth that nestled Me into a sleep beside you. Remembering you. The way you were. So talented that  It took my breath away. Hoping I was good enough Hoping to live the rest Of my days, studying  Your every flaw, Your every strength. However, f

I tried to make myself  Feel a little better. Masking my hurt  With a different touch. A touch that didn't feel The same. A touch that didn't make My heart soar. I tried to make myself  Feel a little better. Numbing the pain With a different flame. An old flame. A flame who didn't Try to make me feel better. Yet, only thinking of you. Remembering your hands Wrapped around my waist. Remembering your voice Calling out my name. Soft whispers against  The fluffy pillows. Heart racing as I stared Into your beautiful brown eyes. You had this way to make Me laugh even in the  Worst times, where I thought Of myself as pathetic. I tried to make myself Feel a little better. Masking my hurt  So I can forget. You, your face, eyes And touch.  I wish I could lie to myself To turn off every emotion. Emotions that yearn For your touch, your love. I want you to re-tell  The lie so I won't feel anymore. So I can go on, believing  That we