Writing from the Heart

In the months when we were together, Bathed beneath the happiness Of the bright sun. I saw us glisten hope. Everyday felt like I had the world In my hands, i n my life,  In my dreams, a nd i n my heart  Because  I had you. In the months when we were together, You looked into my eyes Like you never saw something So perfect, so magical. Everyday felt like I had a safe Place to rest my head, A soft kiss to heal my skin, And a beautiful view in your eyes. We were two people who were Far from being perfect. But I knew in my heart, I wanted to be bathed within your love Forever. In the months when we were together It didn't seem like I was being  Played, by every song you sang By every touch you gave me. Choosing another instead of me. The one person who wanted to  Keep you safe so no one would hurt you again. Yet, I failed and I blamed myself. The last week of being together, Shaded by a blanket of black clouds, Shocking our very need of survival.

The stories are fading away Like the chapters that have come and gone Remembering you in the face of the pain Wanting this ache inside my chest  To go away, so I won't feel it anymore. So, I won't remember what it was like To love you, to have you. Missing my best friend. Desperately, wanting to break  Away from the grip of your hands Just so I can breathe again. I stay awake at night. Praying to God, To erase the memories inside my head To get rid of the demons Clawing at my insides. Twisting my heart, clenching into The veins of the chambers. Waiting to grow completely numb Not wanting to feel the pain. What love caused me to feel. I fell in love with you, You mended my heart Then quickly shattered it. You didn't even look back To see if I was okay, To see if I'm breathing, To see how I'm coping. Instead, I'm left with silence. A silence that can fit  The entire solar system. The orbit we once were floating in. We were e