Writing from the Heart

I think about those days. Full of bliss and wonder. Where the sun never  Failed to shine. Where my sleep was Awakened by your sweet words. Where my heart was  Glowing with happiness. I think about those days. Full of love and beauty. Where my skin never  Failed to show you my love. Goosebumps stenciled onto  My warm skin as you grazed Your fingertips across my back. Skyrocketing my heart to the sky. I think about those days. Before it all happened. Before your touch turned cold. Before you silenced your I love you's. I think about those days  Where every moment  With you froze. Where we laughed close together. I think about you. What we could've been. What we could've lived. What we could've shared. If you hadn't broken my heart. If you hadn't left me. If you hadn't given up. If you hadn't treated me like you did. I think about you. Searching for answers As the time ticks away And you still haven't return...

To Him: The man I can't seem to stop thinking of. The man who invades my mind with images of your face, the perfect pitch of your voice, and the piano playing in the midst of the memory. Everyday, seems to grow harder as the days go by. My heart weakens by the very thought of not being strong enough. I think of those days where smiles illuminated its own sunlight for miles. Believing in your words like waken dreams I didn't know were mine.  I didn't know I wanted. If I close my eyes long enough. I can begin to remember your giggle surfacing in that moment. Your voice so beautiful. Your body fresh to the touch, the hint of safety glistening off your skin--a safety I very much wanted to be wrapped in. I can't begin to think where we went wrong. Where I went wrong... Maybe if I had paid more attention. Maybe if I had understood you better. Maybe if I had steer clear from the arguments. Maybe then I'd be happy with you right now. Celebrating 1 year and 5 months inst...

I open my eyes, To catch my breath. Feeling your love Drift away. The sting in my heart Present, even after Long 9 months  Since you left. I open my mouth, To say the words That have been clawing At my insides. But nothing comes out. Feeling cold air Invade my lungs. Wanting you back. I open my arms, To bring you in. Then quickly close them, Because you aren't mine. The sting in my chest, Poisons the blood in My veins, pumping My chambers, out of synch. I open my mind, To find love again. Then shut the thought away... Again, waiting for you. Wanting to forget your  Touch, the way your Skin heated off my body as You nestled your face into my neck. I open my heart, So I can forget the memories. The memories of us. The laughs, the kisses, the touch. I remember that moment In the park, where you Clinged to my body Like you wanted me forever. But, forever ended so quickly. I didn't have the chance To process. Still...