Writing from the Heart

Everyday is a brand new day, Filled with the wildest dreams, Although there might be a lot to say, Nothing is what it seems. I've held my heart a thousand times, Many battles within my life, Been a witness to your crimes, I will never be your wife. You have buried my soul underneath the pain, I no longer live for happy endings, As if you got me wrapped up in chains, No longer are there findings. Yet hope for a different outcome, I am afraid to look in your eyes, It's like hearing a never ending drum, You have always been in disguise. I loved you for who you were, Not for who you become, Our past is like an endless blur, Making who I am numb. I've held my heart a thousand times, But you were who made me fly, If I had a million dimes, I would no longer say goodbye.

I am a hopeless romantic when it comes to men singing a beautiful song :)

Have you ever experienced love at first sight? Have you ever had a feeling at the pit of your stomach that was uncontrollably sweet? Ever a moment where you wanted to know that person standing in front of you?Well I had only one moment and it turned into utter disaster... I remember looking into the eyes of a handsome man who was defined by his radiating smile. Maybe I was intrigued by his internal sweetness upon first meeting. Maybe it was the situation, the location or maybe even something else. That moment is burned into my mind. I know exactly where I was standing and who I was with. There was just something about him that caught my eye. Maybe it was fate to meet him...fall in love then get my heart broken in order to learn a lesson. Maybe it was to make me stronger. Who knows? But what I do know is that what I felt for him was pure, beautiful, patient and kind. No hardship or fouls or jealousy/ridicule. Just hope that maybe I found the "one". Who is exactly the "o...

When I see your smile,  I tend to run the extra mile, This right now isn't right,  I don't have the will to fight, This feeling that has shaken within me, I need to count to the number three, So my heart won't go out of control, Needing to keep myself whole, This right now is terrifying, Our hearts are synchronizing, The thought of you is a hopeless mess, Neither of us will confess, That our love is growing, But we will keep on going, Hiding ourselves from the world, Feeling a little bit twirled, Your smile radiates like a ray of sunshine, This right now will go for sometime,  When that day comes when you must say goodbye, Don't leave me high and dry, Say hello to a new beginning, So our story will keep on printing, This right now won't end, Time will only mend. 

Escaping from a world of nothingness is quite painful. Falling in love is also hurtful. Pain exists every where we come to find. At times nothingness seems safe, peaceful and heart fulfilling. If we keep our eyes open long enough, we come to realize that everything we have known is nothing what it seems. Heart break is a part of life. Just as hope and love. I was once you can say.. "in love" but that was just a painful memory that doesn't seem to leave my side and at times it is very frustrating. I know in my heart that the experience I had with that pain only made me stronger than from what I was. Although, I may think of him everyday wondering how things might have been but I can't think that way.  I can't allow myself to think of the "What If" because it is too painful. I also know that everything happens for a reason. No regrets. God doesn't place someone in your life just for any reason but for you to become stronger. He knows that you can han...

I fall behind all the others.  No alternative path to follow.  The wind pulls off the feathers.  And Your heart is hallow.  You no longer love.  You no longer care.  When push comes to shove.  You only dare. To hold me back from whom I am.  To break my heart more times than it can bare.  You have always been a scam.  Your words are no longer fair...

Ivy Final http://darkfallgrave.deviantart.com/art/Ivy-Final-449567991

At this moment in my life I try to be the best as I can and yet I feel so invisible to everyone. I pass by many people, many glances and many smiles. I feel at times like no one knows my struggle and judge me by the way I hold my head up high. I am so tired of feeling like the world has dawned on me. Every slight of pain is an arousing feeling that creeps up. In this moment of my life I feel the need to scream because when it comes to friends... I am no one in their life. Just someone they met and pass me by... I know in my heart, that family is all I need. Then why do I feel a piece of me missing and hopeless? Ridiculed. Judged. Invisible. No one understands how much I want for that one moment to come into my life. To actually feel loved... I see all these couples pass me by and I am just here alone in a dark surrounding with no one there to bring me light. I can't express much through speaking rather through the artistic ability of my words. Which sometimes sounds cheesy... Wha...

This moment time is where I hold on to the most. I feel the wind against my rosy cheek and many times people stare at me as if I was a freak. I wonder about the times of the chemical reaction. I breathe in and out as I close my eyes. His image comes to mind... His beautiful smile radiates much sunlight and I can't help but to think of a way to feel his embrace. The sound of his voice relaxes me so I won't faint. All I could think about, if this was fate. I open my eyes and there he is. Holding his breath as I see the beauty that is him. No wonder I feel like a fool. His blue eyes sparkle in the sunlight as I touch the palm of my hand to his cheek. His eyes close as I lean my forehead upon his and I feel protected yet so happy. Then he says those three words I'd been waiting for... "I love you." As I heard those words role off his tongue. I couldn't help but to smile like an idiot. The thought of him is so love driven that I can't see my life without him ...

The days fall, The nights call,  I hear your voice,  I have no choice,  But to love you more,  You are what I live for,  I pray to God to heal your heart,  For you are what I call art,  You are so beautiful,  That your life should be wonderful,  I pray to God to heal away your sorrow,  I wonder about the days after tomorrow,  Your smile should radiate light,  Always shining bright,  I pray to God to heal away your sadness,  You don't deserve this madness,  I love you,  I hope you know,  That I will always walk hand and hand,  For my love for you is so grand. 

The leaves begin to dance with the wind, Your smile always comes to mind, Is there a way to make you mine? Everything seems so fine, Your smile shines underneath the starlight, You are my handsome knight, We might not know what will occur, The past became such a blur, Knowing that you're an inch away, Makes me want you so stay, Love is in the midst of our path, Not even close to the aftermath, My heart begins to tremble, As my world begins to tumble, No words can make me leave you, For you are the one that makes my world blue, I imagine the ocean waves, Will make my heart save, All the love and peace, The time will soon cease,  No other will doubt that we are meant to be, For One day you will go down on one knee, And I will be the happiest girl, I will feel  like a precious pearl, God knows me for who I am, And He will bring me a man, Who will love me the way he should, It will be everything that could, He will give me a wonderful gift, W...