Writing from the Heart

I fall behind all the others.  No alternative path to follow.  The wind pulls off the feathers.  And Your heart is hallow.  You no longer love.  You no longer care.  When push comes to shove.  You only dare. To hold me back from whom I am.  To break my heart more times than it can bare.  You have always been a scam.  Your words are no longer fair...

Ivy Final http://darkfallgrave.deviantart.com/art/Ivy-Final-449567991

At this moment in my life I try to be the best as I can and yet I feel so invisible to everyone. I pass by many people, many glances and many smiles. I feel at times like no one knows my struggle and judge me by the way I hold my head up high. I am so tired of feeling like the world has dawned on me. Every slight of pain is an arousing feeling that creeps up. In this moment of my life I feel the need to scream because when it comes to friends... I am no one in their life. Just someone they met and pass me by... I know in my heart, that family is all I need. Then why do I feel a piece of me missing and hopeless? Ridiculed. Judged. Invisible. No one understands how much I want for that one moment to come into my life. To actually feel loved... I see all these couples pass me by and I am just here alone in a dark surrounding with no one there to bring me light. I can't express much through speaking rather through the artistic ability of my words. Which sometimes sounds cheesy... Wha...

This moment time is where I hold on to the most. I feel the wind against my rosy cheek and many times people stare at me as if I was a freak. I wonder about the times of the chemical reaction. I breathe in and out as I close my eyes. His image comes to mind... His beautiful smile radiates much sunlight and I can't help but to think of a way to feel his embrace. The sound of his voice relaxes me so I won't faint. All I could think about, if this was fate. I open my eyes and there he is. Holding his breath as I see the beauty that is him. No wonder I feel like a fool. His blue eyes sparkle in the sunlight as I touch the palm of my hand to his cheek. His eyes close as I lean my forehead upon his and I feel protected yet so happy. Then he says those three words I'd been waiting for... "I love you." As I heard those words role off his tongue. I couldn't help but to smile like an idiot. The thought of him is so love driven that I can't see my life without him ...

The days fall, The nights call,  I hear your voice,  I have no choice,  But to love you more,  You are what I live for,  I pray to God to heal your heart,  For you are what I call art,  You are so beautiful,  That your life should be wonderful,  I pray to God to heal away your sorrow,  I wonder about the days after tomorrow,  Your smile should radiate light,  Always shining bright,  I pray to God to heal away your sadness,  You don't deserve this madness,  I love you,  I hope you know,  That I will always walk hand and hand,  For my love for you is so grand. 

The leaves begin to dance with the wind, Your smile always comes to mind, Is there a way to make you mine? Everything seems so fine, Your smile shines underneath the starlight, You are my handsome knight, We might not know what will occur, The past became such a blur, Knowing that you're an inch away, Makes me want you so stay, Love is in the midst of our path, Not even close to the aftermath, My heart begins to tremble, As my world begins to tumble, No words can make me leave you, For you are the one that makes my world blue, I imagine the ocean waves, Will make my heart save, All the love and peace, The time will soon cease,  No other will doubt that we are meant to be, For One day you will go down on one knee, And I will be the happiest girl, I will feel  like a precious pearl, God knows me for who I am, And He will bring me a man, Who will love me the way he should, It will be everything that could, He will give me a wonderful gift, W...

The light becomes dimmer, My heart seems to linger, For a way to love you again,  If only I could break the chain, I will always remember, The day you said farewell, No one else can compare, You will never restore, All that you damaged, Many times I feel like a savage, Of your broken promises, You have so much confidence, To let me go, And I didn't know, That this would end in a goodbye, I always think why, I had it all planned out, For I had no doubt, I was going to walk down the aisle, Dressed in white with a smile, Holding you very close, You would have given me a rose, Yet you are gone, Always breaking dawn, All I have is your voice in my head, Now I have to look ahead, Never looking back, I must get back on track, All I have are pictures, Looking in the mirror, To a path of no return, Your love is what I earn, I miss you oh so dearly, Seeing your face so clearly, You will live in my heart, We will ne...