Always Something

There was always something
Inside of you 
That told you to stay with me. 
So you won't regret it.

Ever since we were 
Young and naive.
We were at each other's 
Throat and knees.

My heart fluttered
Every single time
Your fingers touched my skin.
When you looked into my eyes.

There was always something
Inside of you
That told you to not leave.
Then you'd regret it.

Ever since we were 
Young and afraid.
We always annoyed
Each other, out of love.

My skin popcorn with nervousness
Every single time
You tickled my sides.
With the slightest touch of yours.

There was always something 
Inside of us
That told us that this was 
Our shot, to make this right.

Ever since we were 
Young and doubtful.
We always got back to each other.
As if we were magnets.

My lips tingled 
Every single time
You kissed my lips.
Fitting perfectly in my embrace.

Now, it's been cold.
Feeling the bottom of 
My stomach turn with anguish.
Feeling you kill the magnetic force.

With your impulses and insults.
Your selfishness will be your
Demise and I never wanted
That for you.

I wanted to make you happy.
To make you feel loved.
To fill your heart with care.
To be your person.

There was always something
Inside of us.
That took us off course.
Making us regret the decisions.

I remember you telling me, 
"If I regret this decision then
I'd have to live with it."
Yet, if you had doubts

Then why did you let me go?
If something inside of you
Told you not to make me leave?
Then why did you to do it?

Why did you break my heart again?
You knew I wasn't just some girl.
I was your girl.
You had always cling to me.

Through the years of
Laughter and happiness.
Through the years of
Figuring out what we wanted.

There was always something 
Inside of you
That wanted to be with me.
To be my person.

Ever since we were 
Young and clueless.
We were never on the same page.
Leaning toward the easier route.

My heart ached
The moment you said,
"We're done."
That feeling of youth vanished.

I never thought I'd be so disappointed,
In a person who I envisioned my life with.
The sun doesn't shine.
And the static noise is clear.

That you never loved me.
But, that you used me until you were done.