Broken Promises

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To Him:

 I looked into your eyes today and you know what I saw? I saw someone that didn't exist, someone I used to love, and now I'm not sure if what I felt was entirely real. You treated me like I don't exist, every time you passed me by, and all I felt was my heart sink like an anchor. Nothing could crank it up to the surface, even if I tried. Your brown eyes flickering under the sunlight. Your smile illuminating every part of my body and it all felt right. All of it. But now my heart doesn't even flicker when you say my name. When you call me up, I no longer get excited, I just long for that moment when I'd find someone-- someone worth all the love I can spare. Because I mean nothing to you. I never did, all that time I spent with you was meaningless in the most possible way and I hoped for a different result. 

 Do you remember that moment when all was right? I remember those moments when I smiled every time I thought of you. I remember you telling me how you felt, and how much you thought about me throughout the day. I remember how your laugh sizzled in my ears and it was something I couldn't forget. I wanted you to always be there for me when I needed you the most yet the times I did need you...You weren't in reach. I couldn't even touch your hand so you can console me. You were somewhere else far away from me. All those promises you made, I knew in my heart you wouldn't keep them because I knew better. I knew that I wasn't worth those promises. At the beginning, I fed myself your wonderful words and I ended up breaking apart. To tiny pieces of glass and there was no way for me to repair it. 

 So thank you for coming into my life and teaching me a lesson. Thank you for always trying to make it right. Thank you for leaving. 

 From Her.

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