Writing from the Heart

At this moment in my life I try to be the best as I can and yet I feel so invisible to everyone. I pass by many people, many glances and many smiles. I feel at times like no one knows my struggle and judge me by the way I hold my head up high. I am so tired of feeling like the world has dawned on me. Every slight of pain is an arousing feeling that creeps up. In this moment of my life I feel the need to scream because when it comes to friends... I am no one in their life. Just someone they met and pass me by... I know in my heart, that family is all I need. Then why do I feel a piece of me missing and hopeless? Ridiculed. Judged. Invisible. No one understands how much I want for that one moment to come into my life. To actually feel loved... I see all these couples pass me by and I am just here alone in a dark surrounding with no one there to bring me light. I can't express much through speaking rather through the artistic ability of my words. Which sometimes sounds cheesy... Wha...

This moment time is where I hold on to the most. I feel the wind against my rosy cheek and many times people stare at me as if I was a freak. I wonder about the times of the chemical reaction. I breathe in and out as I close my eyes. His image comes to mind... His beautiful smile radiates much sunlight and I can't help but to think of a way to feel his embrace. The sound of his voice relaxes me so I won't faint. All I could think about, if this was fate. I open my eyes and there he is. Holding his breath as I see the beauty that is him. No wonder I feel like a fool. His blue eyes sparkle in the sunlight as I touch the palm of my hand to his cheek. His eyes close as I lean my forehead upon his and I feel protected yet so happy. Then he says those three words I'd been waiting for... "I love you." As I heard those words role off his tongue. I couldn't help but to smile like an idiot. The thought of him is so love driven that I can't see my life without him ...