Wilted Red Rose

Ever since you left,

I've felt more alone,

More distant,

More not myself.

Like a wilted red rose,

Searching for water

And sunlight so its petals

Can bloom again.

But the soil beneath the

Wilted red rose

Is dry and sad.

The sunlight non-existent.

Ever since you left,

I've felt the world stop.

Time stopped existing,

But the separation between us

Has grown further apart.

Strangers in the darkest

Of nights, waiting for the

Sunlight to illuminate 

Our broken and lonely hearts.

My skin missing the tips of

Your fingers, gently outlining

My body, generating goosebumps

All over my skin.

That feeling has been missing

For almost two years and 

No one has compared to you.

Your bright brown eyes

Staring into mine as if they

Somehow belonged.

Our bodies piecing together

As if we were some grand puzzle.

The shiver you generated through

My body was something inexplainable.

Just how my heart doesn't fail

To beat to your name rolling through

My mind as if you were meant to be there.

Living rent-free as you are nowhere to

Be found, missing you like the 

Wilted red rose misses the water and

Sunlight shining against its petals.

Droplets dripping from its stem,

Rejuvenation returning with happiness.

For some reason, letting go is so 

Much harder this time. 

As if it's a crime to talk to someone

Else or to be with someone else.

I've let you go countless of times.

But there is a weight that holds me

Down to reality that you aren't mine

To protect, to love, and to cherish.

Somehow that reality diminishes

When a memory films across

The black screen of my mind.

The feeling I felt with you was so magical.

A part of me wants to hold on and 

To keep my promise that I'm not going

Anywhere. The other part of me

Reminds me that if you really loved

Me then you'd come back.

And I'd gladly let you in.

I'd tell you that I love you.

That I want you.

That I believe in you with

Every breath I take.

That I'm not going anywhere

As long as you don't leave me again.

If you were to come back,

I'd hold you safe in my arms

As you cry into my sweatshirt.

Allow you to feel the wave 

Of static that fills your mind.

I'd remind you that you are so 

Much more than just a space in

This world, you're my soulmate--

My Clark Kent in disguise.

I'd make sure you feel loved.

And that the wilted red rose will

Bloom again beneath the sunlight.

I'd vow to forever be yours.

And you'd vow to always be mine.