Unsettled Heart

I got what I wanted.
The honesty and the truth.
Yet, it was nothing I wanted.
I envisioned better moments.

Moments of laughter and clarity.
All I got was the hurtful truth.
The unwavering unsettling heart ache.
Yet, everything in between.

It was all me, it was all in my head.
The feelings, the hope, and the safety.
You didn't want what I want.
Now I can clearly move on.

Move away from a path of pain.
And into a road of love.
You're right I deserve someone better.
I always have.

I guess I just wanted to hold,
Onto you longer, tighter.
I didn't want to live another
Day-- holding onto someone.

Who didn't want to be held.
Who didn't want me.
But, we can't be friends, can we?
There's too much chemistry.

Not enough sincerity.
There's no future for us.
Now, I know that.
With every punctured vein left, I let go.

I've forgiven,
I've forgotten,
and I'll move forward.
I won't look back.

I won't turn around.
I won't miss you.
And I won't want you.
You made it clear to me.

That I was nothing more
Than a fling.
I can't hate you, no matter how I try.
You made me feel alive.

I saw the kind of man you are.
It all became clear.
Yet, in the midst I wanted to be fought for.
I'm not the one for you.

So you say.
But you tamed all my senses.
I became just another.
And you became like the others.