Writing from the Heart

Ever since you left, I've felt more alone, More distant, More not myself. Like a wilted red rose , Searching for water And sunlight so its petals Can bloom again. But the soil beneath the Wilted red rose Is dry and sad. The sunlight non-existent. Ever since you left, I've felt the world stop. Time stopped existing, But the separation between us Has grown further apart. Strangers in the darkest Of nights, waiting for the Sunlight to illuminate  Our broken and lonely hearts. My skin missing the tips of Your fingers, gently outlining My body, generating goosebumps All over my skin. That feeling has been missing For almost two years and  No one has compared to you. Your bright brown eyes Staring into mine as if they Somehow belonged. Our bodies piecing together As if we were some grand puzzle. The shiver you generated through My body was something inexplainable. Just how my heart doesn't fail To beat to your name rolling through My mind as if you were meant to be there. Living ...

If I were to write our story. Do you know what I'd write? I'd write you in the perfect light. Where the sun glazes over  Your brown marbles, Beneath your glasses, And where the wind kisses Away your tears. You always wanted me  To write our imperfect Love story and even if We didn't end up together We made one hell of a story. Mesmerized by your ability  To play the piano as if your Eyes were closed. As if you composed the music. Perfectly and undeniably amazing. If I were to write our story, I'd hold you in my arms. I'd kiss your cheeks, I'd whisper in your ear, I'd dig my face into the Crook of your neck. I'd make us get married. I'd make us grow a family. I'd make us better at communicating. I'd make us last forever. If I were to write our story, I'd close my eyes and find you. I'd write a story where we  Were made for one another. Instead of living in this life Where you didn't let me in, Where you didn't let me love you. ...

Christmas lights down Main Street, your brown Eyes beneath the sky Your smile so shy. Two years ago, Our heartbeat so slow Counting the seconds Between every caress. Churros, popcorn, New Orleans, Kisses that felt like fireworks. Holding me close to your body As the cold blew against our cheeks. Holding hands, whispering In each other's ears as we  Waited in line for the next Ride of our lives. This was the moment Where I believed we  Were going to last forever, Holding onto Disney Magic. Photos in front of  Walle & Eve, your smile So magical that it felt  Like a dream. A dream I never thought I'd wake up from. The way you looked into  My eyes couldn't be fake. Or could it?  How did I let my dream Consume my judgement? As you held me close During the Haunted Mansion. Stealing kisses when it was  Dark enough, my skin Trembling every time you touched me. My arms wrapped around  Your neck as you held me At my waist, feeling so tiny. Pulling ...

A trip down memory lane, Ice skating, laughing, lovin' Your smile branded into my brain. Our hearts beating, woven Together like lace. A perfect day, stilled Frozen in cold space. Our bodies thrilled. Your laugh echoing in my ears, My hands kissing your cheeks. Hopeful for the years, Ahead, even in the upcoming weeks. A trip down memory lane, White Hallet Davis & Co.  Singing in the time of rain. The notes falling like snow. Your lips touching mine Behind a rolled down window, Hoping that time will make it fine. That I won't miss you. It's been two years since that Moment, social media doesn't fail To remind me of my prince. As if I'm behind bars in jail. Waiting for you to release me, Hoping you'd come home. So I can rejoice in glee. Maybe take a trip to Rome. A trip down memory lane, Weary kisses from a well-fed nap. Love running through my veins. Our bodies filling in the gap. Holding you closely to my body. Branding your touch into my skin. You were alwa...

I want this to end. Don't want to feel. Don't want to think. Don't want to love. You make it a habit. Talking to me just  To see what I'd say. You haven't changed. The brokenness you feel Has always been existent Even in the time we spent  Together...making me feel broken. I deserved more time. I deserved to be loved. I deserved your trust. I deserved your commitment. You speak words of regret. But your actions don't change. You say leaving me was your  Biggest mistake. Then you make it clear That you're still with the  Same girl you left me for. The same girl you spent More than 365 days with. Giving her the time I deserved. Giving her the attention I deserved. You haven't changed. I don't think you ever will. By the time you realize it. The opportunity of us Would be long gone. I can't wait for you to wake up. I've moved on and you did too. You only gave me 7 months. 210 days...that's all I deserved in your eyes. You have no right to te...

I wish there were enough Words to tell you just how Much I miss you, your  Eyes, your breath, your lips. The things I want to say Become lost in the silence Between the waves of  Static. Labored. Non-existent. When I least expect it, You pull me back in  With an ease that only You can do--create. I respond casually, Thinking that the conversation Would lead to an apology  Or a pathway back to each other. I hope you got enough  Of a dosage of my attention. So you can go on for another  Five months with no communication. The actions I want to express Become frozen in a state of  Wonder, hoping that someday I can hold you again. To kiss your cheeks, Your neck, your lips, And your chin. To feel your breath Linger against my collarbone As I breathed in your scent. A scent I no longer remember. A scent I wish I had back. I wish there were enough Words to tell you that I  Never wanted to give up on us. I had so much hope for the future. So...

Is it weird that I still remember The last movie we saw together, The last meal we ate together, The last time you said, 'I love you?' My mind still remembers The pitch of your voice. It's more distant now, but it's there. Your giggle tickling my neck. My heart still remembers The touch of your skin. It's subtle, but it's there. Your lips kissing my cheeks. Is it weird that I still remember The last time we went out on a real date, The last time you came over, The last time we argued? My mind still remembers The curve of your smile. It's non-existent now, but it's there. Your legs wrapping around my waist. My heart still remembers The window kisses. It's something I wish I can get back. Your nose dancing alongside mine. Is it weird that I still remember The last time I heard you play the piano, The last time you played the guitar, The last time you believed in us? It's like my heart doesn't  Want my mind to forget The one person, I've lov...