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Only Exist In Love

Things are different now. I'm happy and feel beautiful. I'm loved and protected. I laugh more than I cry. Things are different now. My heart is in a safe place. My eyes are seeing the world. My ears can hear his voice. Things are better now. There's no more weight Hanging over my shoulders. There's no more pain. Things are better now. I don't find myself  Crawled up in a ball-- Crying the night away As you close your eyes And rest for the night. You look happy. And I'm happy for you. We weren't good together. We weren't meant for each other. We got caught up in the familiarity Of our childhood... Warm kisses and safe touches. You sucked me into your sadness. Making me believe that I didn't Deserve any better than what I was given. Things are brighter now. The sun is kissing my skin. Love is embracing me with warmth. Laughter is surrounding me with safety. Things are brighter now. He wakes up everyday, Tells me he loves me. And I fall more in love wit

Droplet vs. Ocean

When I'm with him, It feels safe--normal. I don't have to fight To get a droplet of love. He gives it willingly, Something your actions Failed to give and Your words failed to say. When I'm with him, It feels like time has stopped. For countless hours. Timeless with so much joy. I don't have to chase him, To get a droplet of love. He holds me tight, He kisses my forehead with care. When I'm with him, He never fails to amaze me. By his grace and patience. By his attention and humor. I don't argue with him Like I did with you. Where every word stung. Where every action burned. Believing that I wasn't  Good enough for you. Believing that I was  The problem. He doesn't make me feel small. He doesn't make me feel unworthy. To the point where I'd lose myself Just to get a droplet of love. When I'm with him, I can conquer the world. He supports me in ways  You could not. He respects my family  And fits in like a puzzle piece I had been missing When

Wilted Red Rose

Ever since you left, I've felt more alone, More distant, More not myself. Like a wilted red rose , Searching for water And sunlight so its petals Can bloom again. But the soil beneath the Wilted red rose Is dry and sad. The sunlight non-existent. Ever since you left, I've felt the world stop. Time stopped existing, But the separation between us Has grown further apart. Strangers in the darkest Of nights, waiting for the Sunlight to illuminate  Our broken and lonely hearts. My skin missing the tips of Your fingers, gently outlining My body, generating goosebumps All over my skin. That feeling has been missing For almost two years and  No one has compared to you. Your bright brown eyes Staring into mine as if they Somehow belonged. Our bodies piecing together As if we were some grand puzzle. The shiver you generated through My body was something inexplainable. Just how my heart doesn't fail To beat to your name rolling through My mind as if you were meant to be there. Living