Writing from the Heart

My heart, loves like no other. It holds on for a long time. Not seeking for another.  Always ready for the climb. My voice, says those three words. The three you've waited for. Singing through the birds. Always wanting more. My mind, thinks of you. It remembers all the pain. Hoping it wasn't true, Always running through my veins. Nothing else matters, You found me then broke me. Watching as everything shatters. No longer setting me free. Look into my eyes, Say it one more time. Before my love for you dies. Take blame for your crime. And so you won. I know what you've done. 

To Him: I looked into your eyes today and you know what I saw? I saw someone that didn't exist, someone I used to love, and now I'm not sure if what I felt was entirely real. You treated me like I don't exist, every time you passed me by, and all I felt was my heart sink like an anchor. Nothing could crank it up to the surface, even if I tried. Your brown eyes flickering under the sunlight. Your smile illuminating every part of my body and it all felt right. All of it. But now my heart doesn't even flicker when you say my name. When you call me up, I no longer get excited, I just long for that moment when I'd find someone-- someone worth all the love I can spare. Because I mean nothing to you. I never did, all that time I spent with you was meaningless in the most possible way and I hoped for a different result.  Do you remember that moment when all was right? I remember those moments when I smiled every time I thought of you. I remember you telling me how you f...

I left when it all went down. I couldn't bear to hear the sound. All you wanted was that crown.  As my heart got buried into the ground. I remember your voice. The way you said "goodbye". You were the best choice. Yet you didn't mind when I cry. I thought you would come after me. But you just stood there, As I threw away the key. And my heart got smaller by every tear.  I remember your touch. The way you held my hand. You just didn't care for me as much. Always looking for a different brand. Your brown eyes shimmered against the moon. Your smile engraved into my mind.  My heart break born in that one night of June. Trying to burn the love I signed.

There was a moment when there only existed hellos. A moment where love is what I felt It flourished in the spring of April. And you were always there. Just two months before June. Pain didn’t exist, not even heart ache. I remember how you sang hellos When our eyes met in April. Right before that midsummer night of June. You always told me how you’d be there. Right before the painful heart ache. I remember how it felt. No one understands the dreadful heart ache. I fell in love little before April. Do you remember how it felt? Smiling as if no one was there. Bright brown eyes and hopeful hellos. Then it ended that month of June. Yet my eyes remember the color of April. Love and safety was all I felt. Trying to forget the branded heart ache. July then came right after June. And you said your last goodbyes and hellos. Still, my heart will always want you to be there.

Choked up lungs. No notes are sung. I believed every word, And my vision was blurred. Comfort came from the winds. It isn’t seen but fooled by the minds. Those brown eyes, Tracing to those days where he was a child. For a moment all was good, Remembering where he stood. Pink hearts of recollection, Darkens seeking affection. Every breath of fresh air, Flared up and it was more than I could bear. Sun kisses disappear in the night, And my hands stopped to write.     His words had shame.     And I broke out of this game. 

I always wondered what it was like, feeling his breath against my lips and that tenderness quality making me weak in the knees. Or even by the way he looks into my eyes, with so much endearment. I always wondered why my heart sinks heavy like the moon every time I was near him. Why I can't stop thinking about him in the slightest? No one could possibly understand how I feel right now-- the way my fingers tremble against his skin. His lips get closer to me and I feel my heart skip a beat or two, forgetting about everything that could possibly go wrong. Forgetting the fact that I've been broken many times before. I know he's different... he wouldn't hurt me right? His green eyes pierce into mine as he moves his body closer. My lips begin to quiver as he begins to place his hand on my thigh, rubbing it softly. He caresses my lips with his and the nervousness begins to flare up. No holding back now as he holds my hand to his chest, wrapping his arm around my waist and press...

My eyes cold. His body frozen, sitting there in       The natural dim light.  No words spoken.  Body language heighten.  Images of good moments        Vacated into a flame.  My heart aches         In silence, it will stay.  His mistakes, no longer         Mistakes.  Rationalizing.  No more Reasoning.  I slowly gather          what's mine.  Leaving a part of          Me Behind.